Remember how our pictures were gold? They only looked gold because I couldn’t see how the gold can fade and show rust underneath. The sparkle was gone, but I kept clawing at the gold plating anyway. I wondered if my fingertips could paint over rust so the gold could stay.

I’m not okay, and that’s okay. I’m going to be true and finally say it.

The story of what I did right and what I did wrong to reach my goals.